It’s getting closer to biopsy day, I had the pre-op in preparation for the procedure next Thursday!! The letter said to allow upto 3 hours but it was much quicker than that i’m glad to say. I was impressed that they have taken my other conditions into consideration and are going to let my husband stay with me rather than just drop me off. So Big long questionnaire completed (Check!) ECG (Check!) blood test (Check!,) blood pressure (Check!,) But very low!! height (Check!), yes still the same as last time, weight (Check!), and I have lost a few pounds which was a bonus. The very efficient nurse, lets call her Sue (after all that is her name! ) So Sue said that if I was not disabled and was working I would need one to two weeks to recover! Rather a long period of time I thought! I was expecting one to two days, maybe it’s because they are doing investigation, Biopsy, smear and coil but still that amount of time does seem a bit excessive. We will just have to wait and see how it goes. The questions I have prepared ready to ask, like how long until I get the results were irrelevant as I was asking the wrong person, these need to be asked when I meet the Dr, just before I am taken down to theatre! I was given two large bags for my numerous amounts of medication and sent on my way. I remember the conversation I had with friends who are in the medical profession. “Try to avoid having any operations in August, as this is when all the newly trained Doctors are let loose on real people, and the death rate always rises in August” Well my procedure is 4th September hopefully they will have the hang of things by then! Eek!! But seriously I just can’t imagine that I have the “C” word! surely I would know! Fingers crossed, break a leg. No, much better than that I will pray, God’s will be done, but please God let me be ok!
It’s been quite anxious waiting to get an appointment for the biopsy. I was not sure if it would be a phone call or letter but I was kind of relieved when Graham the postman turned up with a pile of letters and some parcels from ebay. The letter looked official and had a large form for me to fill in. I feel pleased to know when my appointment is! First I have to go in for a pre-op assessment in five days time, the letter said to allow up to three hours for the assessment. I will have to have an ECG, full medical history, my weight, height and what car I drive, (well maybe not that much info) Then comes the biopsy!! in twelve days. The long probing telescope-like device that is inserted into the uterus through the vagina and cervix, I am very glad to say it will be done under general anaesthetic and they are going to fit a coil and do a cervical smear test at the same time, you could say (3 for 1 offer!) Then it’s the waiting game, to find out the cause of my horrid symptoms! Could it be the fruits up to mischief, banging into each other and causing problems or could it possibly be the unthinkable, unspeakable word that everyone shy’s away from, too awkward for people to talk about. I found even at this stage, the stage of investigation that people who I have told are playing lets pretend we don’t know anything and putting there hands over their ears singing La la la! I find it hard to imagine if I have actually got the, you know, “C” word. Will people avoid me, not talk to me, not mention it? I already feel different and feel as though I am treated different. I feel like people are speaking about it, just not to me. How will I cope with a whispering support network that are too afraid to mention the unmentionable. What if i do have “it” do I tell people or do I hide it away in a dark corner and play lets pretend so I can not make other people feel uncomfortable!
I am glad I will be asleep during this procedure and not know anything about this instrument probing about inside my private area. Just think, one little piece of skin taken from my womb holds the key!Yuck #dreadinglargeinstrumentinsidemymini!